It’s too bad for them that your work will not grace the space. I know it would have made the place a space people wanted to come back to, like a warm fireplace on a cool night. A place to come and commune. Good for you for following your heart and going where what you do is valued for all that you bring.

I’ve learned this tool at a deeper level of late from Susan Ponder and it has to do with going into my heart and calling on my sacred consciousness, Christ consciousness, Goddess consciousness, Buddha, God, whatever you call it and saying the ______ consciousness in me forgives you for any wrongs I have felt. The forgiveness is not about excusing behavior. It’s about letting go, releasing the event from your energy so that there are no blocks in your energy field. After you do this for you then you call on that persons _______ consciousness and say that he/she forgives you for all that has taken place. It might seem like there is nothing that either of you would be forgiving about, but doing this really sets the energy free for something even better to come along. You do not even have to talk to this person to call on their higher consciousness for forgiveness/releasing any energetic bonds. Simply saying it yourself effects the release. You do it for you and you do it for them. Amazing things happen as a result as you clear the energy from one another for the best and highest good. The results might happen the same day or in a week. A new job in a sacred setting that will touch and heal the hearts of thousands. You already have all the tools because you bought them for this other job. Perhaps it was a dry run to show you what you don’t desire and exactly what you do desire. You deserve it!

Just a suggestion.

Thanks for all of the beautiful work that you do.

Hugs,

Nellie

My father was simply the toughest person I have ever known. He was a member of the 101st Airborne division, surviving the siege in the Ardennes Forest in WWII. Later in life he survived hiking off a mountain with broken ribs after a plane crash and survived being burned on 2/3rds of his body after a helicopter crash. Each hardship seemed to make him stronger. Despite the hardships of his life, he remained a robust, commanding figure who continued to do calisthenics and walk miles daily until the age of 80.

In the last 6 months of his life, he was bedridden by kidney failure and unable to take care of himself. My mother spent every moment of every day by his side. For her sake as much as his, my brothers and sisters and I traded off nights and weekends helping to take care of Dad. Hospice was there 5 days a week and was a godsend. Together, we watched this tough, proud man suffer the indignities of having even the smallest, personal chore done for him. Despite the humiliation, Dad came to accept the care and love provided to him by his family. I believe he was gratified to see his sons and daughters there not just for him but for his wife, our mother. In the end though, he waited until a time when he was alone with his wife to let himself pass on.

Even when a person knows they face the inevitable, they still feel the need to hold on until they can accept the change in their own terms. In my fathers case, he needed to accomplish these things 1) he had to outlive the doctors estimates (doctors had always underestimated his ability to recover: he easily beat their expectations, more than doubling their longest expectations) 2) that he could see that his wife, our mother would be in good hands, 3) that he could see it snow one more time (I still have never figured out why, but he asked about snow every day from October on and passed away on the day of the first significant snow) and 4) that he be able to go quietly, in his own bed, alone with his wife.

I wonder what conditions each citizen holds onto; the conditions they set before they can accept the inevitable changes of life?